Sunday, 15 February 2015

The Break Up

Not sure how to start this so I'm gunna just go with it. Last year I started blogging, twice, sometimes even three times a week. I don't have many followers, but it made me happy. As you would be able to see from my page, I've not been present lately. My relationship ended and my life went upside down for a while. 

Brief? 4 Year Relationship, thought we'd grow old together. He started looking else where. He ended it. 

It's taken a long time to sit down and actually write this post. It's something I wanted to do but kept putting it off. I wanted to share my tips for a break up. 


There are no fucking tips. Or tricks. Or anything that's going to instantly relive that pain. Trust me, I googled every web page you can imagine. I'm going to share what actually helps not so much at first, but in the long run, as days & weeks go by. 


Family and friends. Tell who you need to tell and get it over with. Holding onto that and having to respond 'yeah I'm okay' is bull shit. Tell who you're closest to you and let them look after you, even if you don't want them too. You'll thank me later. 


Let yourself grieve. Let yourself put your headphones in with 'your' song playing looking at all your photos, crying at what could of been. It's so important to let this out your system. Before you know it.. You'll be making a bonfire out of all the birthday and Valentine cards you shared while drinking a bottle of wine, toasting that you're glad it's over.  


Cut the contact. For the first couple of weeks it will be impossible not to check his Facebook or text him to see how he is. After this period, be strict with yourself, block all contact. If you find yourself wanting to open your laptop, you go get your butt in a bubble bath, go for a run or let's be real - raid the chocolate stash. Do whatever takes your mind off it. 


Make plans with family and friends, even if you don't want to, book a date for a couple weeks time. When it gets closer you'll be glad you did and will hopefully be looking forward to it. The little pleasures in life with keep you going. Crack out a new tv series to get stuck into. Breaking Bad is a good option (Aaron Paul helps). 


Get sable. Put your head into your work and/or hobby and make sure you have a stable living situation. For me, I was so worried about not being able to afford my rent without him living with me. It made me so anxious. When I sorted my situation out, I found myself actually enjoying this new time to myself and knowing I was safe. I always had a warm bed at the end of the day and a full belly. 


Look back with happiness. Try not look at your time together as a wasted journey. Try and just value the nice memories you had. You may not be able to stand that person anymore, but don't get all angry when looking at the bench you used to always meet at. Look back at it as if it was a happy experience in your life. You may want to change your way of thinking down the line, but initially, thinking like this really helped me. 


Treat yourself. Take some time to start pampering yourself. Doing the things you couldn't with him. Eat the food he never liked. Like that hangbag? Splurge, you deserve it. Want to eat 2 tubs of Ben & Jerrys? Do it. Get it all out your system. Most importantly, enjoy doing these little  things. 


Remember that everything usually happens for a reason. Although at first you feel pain that you didn't even know existed and you feel your whole life is over, as you had it all mapped out. With hm. Remember that things usually work them selves out for the better down the line. You may get an opportunity to move somewhere amazing or meet somebody that treats like never before. Be open and remember there's worse things in the world. 


Finally, no amount of tips/advice online, not even these, will make the pain go away. I hate to say it, but time really is a healer. People said it to me and I felt like punching them in the face, but man oh man they were so right. Wake up, shower, do your thing, go to sleep. Repeat. Keep going, it gets easier. I promise. 

Thanks for reading, if this helps one person, I'll be happy. 

Paige xo 

Thursday, 22 January 2015

Fresh & Dewy Makeup Look

Soooo, I haven't blogged for the whole of January, FAIL. It wasn't the plan (far from it) but my relationship ended so I think I should be left off the hook! Moving quickly on (still a sensitive subject)... When I did start wearing makeup again, I was OBSESSED with fresh, glowy skin. I'm sure there a 101 beautiful tutorials on YouTube (Jaclyn Hill is my fav) but I thought I'd share some of my favourite current products for this look!
Products Used:
Garnier Moisture Match - Normal Skin
Maybelline Baby Skin Primer
Rimmel 25 Hour Nude Foundation in 100
Essence All About Matte Powder
Benefit Hoola Bronzer
NYX Blush in Peach
theBalm Mary Lou Manizer
Anastasia Brow Wiz in Medium Brown
Makeup Revolution Mattes Palette
Urban Decay Kohl Pencil in Lush
Maybelline Falsies Mascara (Waterproof)
Urban Decay Lipstick in Naked
Please do let me know your favourite products for glowy skin, like I said, I'm obsessed right now!
Paige xo

Monday, 29 December 2014

Rocking a Pop of Purple

It's that time where, as a beauty lover, you most probably got some new make up for Christmas and you just want to play with it all. My mum got me a set with all the Urban Decay 24/7 Eye Kohl Pencils in. I'm a huge fan of wearing kohl liner in all sorts of ways anyway but this made me want to experiment with all the different colours that you get in the pack. I was far too excited swatching them all on Christmas day.
Products used for the look:
I kept the lid pretty neutral and just deepened up my crease a little with a soft brown and lined my upper lash line thinly with a dark brown. For the pop of purple, I took the kohl pencil in my waterline and smudged underneath my eye and blended out.
I love how this look turned out and proud of myself for trying colour!
P.S. This would totally look amazing on green eyes *heart emoji*
Paige xo

Tuesday, 23 December 2014

MUA Luxe Velvet Lip Laquers

Hi guys! I saw a fellow blogger talk about one of these a while back, and I was quite interested in picking them as they look like they could be a dupe for the Lime Crime Velvetines. I wouldn't be able to compare as I don't actually own any Lime Crime as its not available in the UK but I wanted to try them any how (one day I'll get my hands on them).

As you can see, I got colours Reckless & Kooky.
Reckless is a beautiful bright red, it actually looks a lot darker in the tube to how it comes out on the lips.
Kooky is a straight up purple. Not a light lilac nor a deep purple, a middle ground purple.
The formula is a matte, very fast drying, long lasting formula. At first I couldn't actually get these swatches off my hand, the only thing that did it was MAC Cleanse Off Oil, of course you think, great! I won't have to top up all day! However, I found that it was too matte that it was sticky and when I accidently rubbed my lips together (as you automatically do) it rubbed off parts of each lip which sucked.

Overall, for the price (£3.00) I think this is a product to check out, however, there are some issues with the staying power and it rubbing away. Saying that, I have yet to try it with lip balm or other products.
Have you tried these yet? What do you think?
Paige xo

Sunday, 14 December 2014

My Christmas Party Makeup

Products Used:
Rimmel Stay Matte Primer
Rimmel Match Perfection Foundation
Maybelline Matte Maker Powder
Benefit Hoola Bronzer
Benefit Rockateur Blusher
theBalm Mary Lou Manizer
Anastasia Brow Wiz in Medium Brown
Mac 'All the Glitters' Eyeshadow
the Balm eyeshadow in 'Sexy'
the Balm eyeshadow in 'Sultry'
L'Oreal Super Liner
Maybelline Falsies Mascara Waterproof
Tanya Burr Bambi Lashes
Urban Decay Kohl Liner in Lush
Rimmel Apocolips in Meteoric Matte

It's that time, all the Christmas parties are starting! Mine is actually this Friday but I wanted to blog about what makeup I was going to wear but would not have the time nor the light to do it next Friday.
I went for a red lip and neutral eye as you can see. I love the lashes and the definition to the eyes.
To create the eyes I took 'All that Glitters' all over the eyes then 'Sultry' in the crease buffed right out to the brow bone. I then used 'Sexy' (a beautiful dark red/purple) building up the colour and intensity in the crease. I tried to keep the inner corner and lid as light as possible by topping up with 'All that Glitters' to finish.
Lower Lash Line:
For the lower lash line I mixed 'Sultry' & 'Sexy' on a pencil brush and blended under the eye. To darken even more, I took some kohl along the lower lash line to blended out with the same pencil brush.
I hope you enjoy the festive period whatever you may be doing and enjoyed this look!
Paige xo


Wednesday, 10 December 2014

L'oreal Super Liner Review/Swatch

I'm by no means an expert at liner, in fact, it's one of things I kind of suck at. Give me a kohl liner to smudge any day. But there is something about have a nice clean, crisp liner look.
Because of my lack of skills I really struggle with finding a good liner that works for me. I've had a few on my list to test out, but came across this on Feel Unique and remember hearing A LOT of gurus and bloggers saying how good it was.
Boy they were not wrong. This makes my liner look pro, like legit. I actually stop and look at it in the mirror and say to myself 'did I really do that?'.
(L'Oreal Super Liner Black Lacquer Waterproof)

I'm obviously not good and swatching a straight line though...
The formula is super long lasting and has a shiny finish, which I'm not a huge fan of, but I can cope for now by using a matte black eyeshadow over top.
When I say long lasting, it withstands me rubbing my eyes all day from 7am - 6pm, not bad going!
I would totally recommend this product for beginners like me!
Have you tried it? What do you think?
Paige xo

Saturday, 6 December 2014

The Lottery Wishlist

Christian Louboutins Bianca 140mm
I would LOVE to have some classic Louboutins that I could get a lot of use out of, I think they are such a basic but very beautiful shoe.
Mulberry Bayswater Double Zip Tote in Oak Natural Leather
I think a mulberry handbag is on every girls wishlist, they are absolutely stunning but will literally last you a lifetime. I love this brown leather but the oxblood range is also beautiful.
Charlotte Tilbury Lipstick Library
Oh my goodness, holy moly. I've been wanting to try the Charlotte Tilbury lipsticks for a long time but I can never choose which shade. So this is like a dream for me.....
Michael Kors Rose Gold Watch
This is something that's been on my list for what feels like a couple of years and when hunting for the above picture, I saw that The Watch Hut have it on sale.... EEEEEEK. Maybe next payday!?!
What is your lottery wishlist?
Paige xo